That's not fair, Life's not fair

That's not fair, A phrase kids use when things don't go their way. When one child gets what the other child doesn't. I think even as adults we tend to say or at least think this. Life just isn't fair. When things come up in my life that make me think this I try to think of the positives of why something didn't happen the way I thought it should. God has plans for all of us sometimes its not our plans.

 I am reminded of this today as I wake up with the sun in my eyes and a cup of coffee in hand. I think wow why can't all days be this nice, Or why can't I be having a morning coffee with my sister or BFF, Or why do I have all this mom stuff to do today, Why can't I be the one to rush off to work and earn money, or why can't I hang out with someone I care about instead of doing the other things I have to do today. Life just isn't fair.

Maybe life isn't fair. Maybe that's the way its suppose to be. living in a world with so many horrible things happening. living in a world run by technology. living in a world where we are always wishing, and thinking life's not fair. I will keep thinking this. I will keep wondering what could be but only because I can and it helps me see the good. The good in all things. The good in the whys, the good in the rainy cold days, the good in goodbyes. the good in missing someone. Because life is not fair…..

What I learned from Lent

I have never observed Lent before. It was never taught to me. I choose this year to learn and observe. I choose to do this to get closer to God. I gave up chocolate. I did get closer to God. I also learned more self-control. It made me realize I need to take that to the next level and work on self-control in other areas of my life.

My battles with the things of this world will always be there. That is human nature. I will strive to go against the grain and give up worldly things to serve my God.

Summer is almost here. I plan to enjoy every minute of it.

Thats enough of my random thoughts for the day.

Dancing in the storm

Life keeps throwing curve balls. I keep trying to dodge them. Its not easy and most of the time they hit me. I try to look on the bright side. I try to change my perception on things. To dance in the storm. All I can do is keep dancing. No matter what life brings I keep looking to God for all things. He is my comfort. My healer. My one and only. I hope others can see this too. With out God we are nothing. With him anything is possible. I keep my eyes focused on him. He will lead me through this storm to the the other side. I trust in him even when I can't see the things he is doing in my life. Is it hard.Really hard at times. I want to give up some time. throw in the towel of this thing called life. no body said life was going to be easy. I just have to trust and keep my head above the waves. I will make it through this life. I fall down, I will get up even stronger.
Just like the girl scout promise.
On my honor
I will try to sever God and my country,
to help people at all times and
to live by the girl scout law.

Learning the hard way

God lets us go through things sometimes so we learn through mistakes. We all have the choice to do the things we do. Some times those choices we choice make us fall. We can learn and grow from these things. We don't have to beat ourselves up. We can forgive ourselves for our mistakes. These mistakes and learning experience usually lead to the most change and learning. These things stick for a life time. God doesn't put us through things just because. We can take every situation good or bad and use it to grow and learn. God is the center of my life and heart. Sometimes the things of this world take over and lead me in the wrong direction. God forgives, I forgive. I learn, I grow and I move on. Lets all learn something from our mistakes. God loves us and does the very best for us.

Job 34:2

“Hear my words, you wise men; listen to me, you men of learning.

Dreams

From a time of reflecting to how I can make my dreams come true. I think daily of what I want to be when I "grow up". My first career as a vehicle mechanic in the Air force has been good to me. But are there bigger and better things God has in his plan for me. I have lots of opportunities coming up in the next year. Will I go back to work full time. Will I go to school. Will a pursue a home business. Will I choose to dive in head first to my children's school and there activities. What is it I want to do to better myself and my family.

College is always up there on the top of the list. I have school money. I need to use it. With two kids in school I will have time for classes and studying.

Finding a part time job is also in the mix. Earning a little extra money for our family will for sure help us out in the long run.

Going to work full time. Wow that one is like at the bottom of the list right now.  I would love to take a full time job. Will it be worth the stress. Will it make me and my family happy.

To many questions. To many what ifs. I need to really sit down and figure out my next move towards my dreams. Are these things selfish. Well these  things make me happy.

Dreaming the dreams I have. Dreaming the dreams I want and can pursue. Life has so many options, difficulties, struggles. I can see the other side. I can see the grown up me.

I will work towards these things. I will work towards a goal. Starting today I will enjoy the moment. and stop thinking so much of the future. Keeping those thought to a page in a book. I will look towards tomorrow but not with so much dreaming. I will find the time to research my next step with out forgetting to enjoying the now.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

reflecting

I had this awesome opportunity to go to Hawaii for my anual training.  I am so glad I jumped on that plane after the year I had.  It was so refeshing. I had lots of time to think, to relax and recharge. Something I truly needed. God knows what we needed and when we need it. I told myself I will have fun, and I will enjoy the ocean. It is such a scary place to be.I learned it can be refreshing, energishing, powerful but also peaceful. Watching the sunrise and set on such a beautiful place I found God in a big way. My fears are being changed into things of the past. I am truely looking foward with no fear.
We all need that time to reconnect with God. Weather you find a few minutes in the morning before the kids wake up, or at night before you close your eyes or on a beach in Hawaii find that time to connect, reflect and talk to your heavenly father.

20 days FB free made me realize and learn so much

As I sit and reflect on what the Lord has taught me on this Facebook free journey. I know that it is not only FB that is a distraction from the more important things but electronics period. I was still not doing the other things I should have been doing but rather playing on the iPad, my phone etc. We lived without these things before. I think I can do it again.
I am having a hard time coming to terms with the fact these things are in our lives and people forget to live real life. I am really trying to make some changes in my home to better our lives without these distracts.
I am not saying these things are bad but a major distraction. Yes it is convenient to text a friend about something or send a FB message. It's also nice to hear that friends voice and be heard also. I am still enjoying these electronic devices just with a little more FaceTime and a little less screen time.
The Lord and taught me to love as he has loved us. He has showes me what is important in my life. He has changed me and transformed me. I am growing closer to my best friend Jesus Christ. Forever I well be his child.
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